GLASS

When you first fell for me you said it was because of the glass

glittering heart in my chest that no one else has

So clear and so open and so crystal and clean

The brightest heart that you’d ever seen

But the thing is that glass is so easy to break

All you need is one tiny mistake

You figured that the shine was all that mattered

You didn’t realize when it slipped from your hands it would shatter

And when you saw just what you’d done

You tried to stop the breaking that had already begun

You tried to put back together the pieces and they cut you deep

And you grew frustrated and tired as I made you bleed

And you finally gave up and walked away

Because the price was too much to pay

Hearts are expensive and one of a kind

And trying to fix the old one drove you out of your mind

So finally you reached the end of your rope

Decided I was all out of hope

Moved on with someone you thought would be stronger

But you’ll break them soon- just a little bit longer

You haven’t been able to take your words back so far

Because they’ve already left thick red scars

Just like an old photo where the color’s started to fade

As you try to put back together the mess that you made

And I

Don’t cry

I don’t say a word

Silence is something that can be heard

Silver, gold, even diamond

You’ll find a way to get to them

Because your own heart is made of stone

It’s chained up and frozen and locked all alone

But it can give too- little by little

Tiny fractures branching out from the middle

And it will happen one day- and I’m warning you

Glass hearts will break- but stone one’s will too

WOLFCALLS

 ALL ALRIGHT WITH ME

Kiss her deeply, look in her eyes

And break something in me hidden inside

But baby, it all seems alright with you

And I bet she loves you better than I do

Gotta walk on your tightrope

Blown around by high hopes

Trying to get over you

But love, its nothing new

And I’ve gotta balance

Clear your closed- in fence

Hit the tracks

Run and never look back

And the night is so cold

Even though I’ve already been told

And I’ve gotta will myself to be strong

Even before we’d begin you’d moved on

I tried so hard to get that smile on your face

Just to be replaced

But baby, it seems alright with you

And I think she loves you better than I do

I know you’re listening now to hear what I say

I can feel your eyes on me even when I walk away

And I can feel your touch even when no one else is near

And I can hear your silence- deafeningly clear

And I miss your laugh and the sound of your voice

But I need to respect that you’ve made your choice

So I wrote you this song and told you this story

Please just keep it a secret for me

And you love her more- and she’s the one who makes you happy

And baby, that’s all alright with me

WOLFCALLS

STORM

Beforehand was the worst part

With fire sparking between the cracks of a broken heart

And the air was so intense

As both sides readied their best defense

Then storm clouds began rolling in

Alive with energy and darker than sin

And fear burned bright

In a hate- riddled night

And I took a deep breath

And stepped into the shadow of death

And the storm rode high

So loud it was deafening and I

Stood there with the wind running over me

Threatened by all the wild waves of the sea

And all these chains dragged me down

But as lightning crashed around

And rained streamed down my skin

Realizing just what position I was in

And the storm tore away the fear and set me free

And it when the lightning struck my heart I could finally  breathe

And as it faded and with it’s own life took mine

I laughed for the first time

WOLFCALLS

 

 

 

 

 

 

GRAY SKIES

Voices echo off the walls

As I watch him watch me from across the hall

I hear his voice swirl through my brain

24/7, I think I’m going insane

He speaks a thousand words all through a perfect silence

Playing with both sides- in one hand faith the other science

He’ll let me go, saying he’s set me free

Then whisper in my ear that he could never leave me

He’s not even sure if what he says is real

‘Cause he’s just addicted to the way that it feels

Says he won’t let go ’cause he’d never make it on his own

Yet he and I both know he’d do just fine alone,

He knows all the best ways to take me apart

Makes a fool out of my logic by pulling on my heart,

Gets me convinced he’s always watching from behind,

Leaves me with words I keep running through my mind

And he likes to keep nothing the way that it were

But there is one thing  that I know for sure

He’s addicted to those gray skies

And I’m addicted to the fire in his eyes,

He loves breathing in the air before a storm,

He’ll sleep in the middle of a blizzard to keep warm

He’s addicted to the vibration of the drums sounding,

And loves anything that will get his heart pounding,

He’s addicted to the light of the full moon late at night

And he’s addicted to the thrill of winning fights

He chases highs just to be reckless

And we wake entwined in the perfect mess

And I know he’ll get me every time

Because I know he’s never really mine

Chasing him’s just gonna wind me up dead

Because he’s always a thousand steps ahead

And each time around leads to more regrets

But I’m not ready to give up yet

Let me share a secret with you:

He’s addicted to the feeling- but I am too

WOLFCALLS

 

SUNLIGHT

sunshineI watched him with sunlight in his eyes as he cried

Breathing too fast, heartbeat too loud as I listened to him lie

And I’d give a million dollars to know what’s going through his head

But I have to settle for sleeping with a ghost instead

And he leans in from his side of the bed and takes my face in his hands

Says he can’t explain it- that I wouldn’t understand

He thought that I was different but I’m just like all the rest

And no one can fix that empty space inside his chest

He says he loved me but we both know that’s not true

And I say “I don’t know how I can get through to you”,

No words, no sound as I slowly get back dressed

I know what he’s going through- is it really so hard to confess?

Finally he admits “I don’t know what love is

And all those nights out chased is

Just emotions that’ve been wasted”

And so I say

“Sometimes that’s okay

Because sometimes it’s alright not to know

The hard part’s letting go

And sometimes it’s alright

To cry out for someone to hold at night

You just need someone to to take you home

To pretend you’re not alone

Sometimes you don’t want happiness going in

You just want your heart pumping in adrenaline

And sometimes you don’t want love- just a warm body

And someone who you can let all the scars see

And sometimes it’s hard to remember it’s just a fling

What you think is killing you is just a feeling

Then you think love isn’t real- it’s just a powerful illusion

Just a broken heart drawn to a desperate conclusion

And sometimes it’s alright to cry

Let your heartache stream down from your eyes

Like crystal sunlight,like broken glass

As you wonder how much longer you can last

And you’re so confused

You thought you were loved but you were just used

Praying this is just a dream- that none of this hell is real

Trust me- I know just how that feels”

And I stare into his eyes

An entire world of broken skies

And I hold him while he cries

Listen while he confesses his lies

I hold him while his heart breaks

Under the weight of so many mistakes

As inside he slowly dies

I have him look up to the sunrise

Searching for this end of night

One last chance for the sunlight

-WOLFCALLS

 

WINTERHEART

I fell for him in an autumn still laced with summer’s heat
First time he put his arms around me I was mesmerized by his heartbeat
It was pure summer when we were together
A space in time that spun out to forever
He’s a fire with a heart I can feel burning in mine
I could’ve lived in that summer until the end of time
I struggled to match his heat but no matter how hard I tried
I couldn’t shake the cold- I was still winter inside
It was like rays of light trying to reach through a dark river
He gave me his love but all I gave him was a shiver
And I just want to see him laughing- see his eyes light up with joy
But I’m never warm enough for my beautiful summer boy
He holds the power of daylight circling in his hand
A golden mystery winter could never understand
And while he melts away my snow and brings warmth to my breath
All I can give him is cold- enough to freeze him to death
There’s a reason only winter is characterized by snow
And it breaks me inside but I’ve got to let him go
I hope he finds someone complete and alive
So he doesn’t have to struggle through blizzards to survive
And I know he tried to put back together these broken parts
Because under all this frozen crystal he still saw a heart
But the ice just cut his hands and forced him to bleed
And he grew frustrated, thinking he didn’t have what I need
And I thought I felt love but it was really just cold
The glitter of ice falling for the glitter of gold
Summer could never love winter with all its frostbite and snow
And he never could’ve fallen for me- I know
And so I’ll watch from the edge of the icy woods
Tell myself this is all for good
The night inside screaming for light of day
As winter chases summer- but I’m always season’s away
-WOLFCALLS

CRAZY LOVE

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Baby you the best of the best ’cause you work me out

I build my walls up just for you to tear down

You make me go extra miles till I’m hard as rock

Push it till I explode in an aftershock

Part of me loves you, part of me hates you

And you drive me crazy with what you do,

You don’t even realize this is how I feel

You could never tell a lie apart from what’s real

Baby you slash me to pieces till all I can do is bleed

Crazy high from love, you’re all I’ll ever need

You’re love reminds me of a steel hunting trap

Once I fall for you I can never go back

And you’re like the hunter who catches me

Loving you’s like being killed with electricity

And I sort of hate it, and I sort of love it

But either way it’s too late cause the dynamites been lit

And you don’t even realize

How around you part of me dies

And you drive me round and round inside of my head

Like gunshots firing – I swear you’re gonna drop me dead

Drive me till I’ve got strength like stone

Make me see other people when I’m all alone

Make me wanna laugh, make me wanna scream

Make me spin around in circles of insane dreams

Baby I’ve got almost all the signs of insanity

Why can’t you just release your hold on me?

I wish I could settle for one of the rest

But you give me this funny feeling inside my chest

Whenever you’re near me

How can that be?

If they ask me to describe it I don’t know if I could

Or maybe I just don’t know if I would

Cause all the stars are shifting out of alignment up above

Baby this must be what they call crazy love

WOLFCALLS

 

I PROMISE

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Here I am standing here all over again,

Reminded of the promise I made then,

Don’t they know it’s not really me,

But they just can’t see

Because the scars come with ties

They all link back to lies,

All the whispers in the night

I gave up putting up a fight,

Thought it’s not worth being strong,

But now I know I was wrong

Should’ve left it as it was

Because

I’m tired of causing all of this pain,

Tired of of all these bloodstains,

So I’m gonna take my secrets and tell

All ten thousand reasons I fell

I’m going to tell you my fears

What I haven’t said in years,

I’m going to do something I’ve never done

I’m going to trust someone

I’m going to be honest this time

Because I’m

Tired of hearing the judge call my name,

Tired of playing this game,

I’m tired of all these chains

Tired of putting out all these flames

Tired of paying the cost

Sick of lives being lost,

Tired of the scarlet floods

Tired of all the innocent blood

It was never meant to come to this

I promise

So now I’m telling you this secret so hold it tight

Decide if what I did is right

They’ll all think I’m a liar

Trial, wall, fire

And this is hard to do

But I’m going to tell you

What’s been killing me every day

All the things I didn’t say

Everything I never confessed

The story behind this mess

I’m going to pull on through

And now I’m going to trust you

And because I’ve already failed

Let me tell you my tale

I’m going to give you the proof

Just in case you’re brave enough to tell them the truth

-WOLFCALLS

PRISONERS

You and me- tied up, struggling and screaming

Chained down, dying, hallucinating or dreaming?

There’s no escape from here

Prisoners of our own fear

Darkness, anger, walls closed completely,

No doors, locked chains, we’ll never break free

Gasping, burning, eyes fixed on your face

The world’s stopped turning- why’d we bring ourselves to this place?

Hopelessness, despair and heartache

Metal and blood- how long until we break?

Come out of this life is what the whispering voices are calling

And I can’t stop myself, can’t catch myself from falling

Your eyes meet my eyes

Who’ll be the first to die?

Shattered and breathless

This is the price of being reckless

They’ll come soon with their shining guns

Mock us and taunt us for not being able to run

Caged in, ruined, soon we’ll be sleeping forever

You whisper to me that at least we’ll then be together

There’s no way that alone I’ll pull through

But maybe, just maybe I can with you

Your hands, my hands, tied behind our backs

Two lives, two hearts, like trains run right off the tracks

Time is running out and we’re not going to survive

Helping you to escape is my only motive to be alive

If you make it out without me, just run far away

And then maybe everything will finally be okay

We’re trying to  be strong but we’re just too weak

Frozen, failing, motionless and can’t speak

Neither of us want to stay

But we’re too exhausted to run away

Caught up in their lies

It’s what’s causing us to die

Their criticism and their doubts

Took the silver lining from our clouds

And they’re scared of our love

As it caused their planets to fall out from alignment and their stars to fall

The truth’s out but they don’t want to believe

All they want is to pretend and deceive

Stuck in their own ignorant mindset

That we’ve now caused them to forget

They don’t want to see the truth

They want to be invincible and fireproof

So they blocked out everything

Locked us up and cut off our wings

They want to line us in front of a wall

Pull their triggers and end us all

Then go back to what they convince themselves

Knock our words off their shelves

Their lies have taken over this nation

And being a burning light will have to be my motivation

So I have no second thoughts and no regrets

Because it’s not over yet

So stay alive with me- just one more night

Because there’s no way we’re going down without a fight

WOLFCALLS