BEST AT THIS GAME

He doesn’t like when I’m out all night

He doesn’t like when I play pretend

He doesn’t like it when I get into fights

Says it’s not the way to go with friends

 

She just wants to mess with me

She doesn’t even really give it any thought

I swear to god that girl is crazy

And I’m just waiting to get caught

 

He says he can trust me

He doesn’t know the half of what I’ve done

And I keep trying to cover it up so he won’t see

But the landslide’s already begun

 

I know there’s something she’s not saying

I can see it in her eyes

But it’s her game and she’s the best at playing

She’s a pro at weaving her secrets in with lies

 

He’s just like all the rest

With summer dancing in his hands

And though he pushes my secrets to the test

I know he wouldn’t understand

 

I can’t tell when she’s faking ’cause she keeps rocking the boat

Anything you’ll say “don’t” to she’ll do

Crash it, burn it, blow a kiss and leave a note

Just because you told her not to

 

They all say they can instantly trust me

They don’t know that I’m a backstabbing little fox

It takes them a whiles to finally see

And by then they’re already under my lock

 

She’s just in my friend zone

But I know she’s out to win

She’s the X of the equation that I can’t get alone

Clever little vixen

She carries all the secrets

And she balances the lines

She buries all her regrets

And she’ll get you every time

But I’m learning all her tricks

The girl under the masks is so tired within

I know her illusions aren’t really magic

And I know this time I’ll win

-WOLFCALLS

 

 

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GLASS

When you first fell for me you said it was because of the glass

glittering heart in my chest that no one else has

So clear and so open and so crystal and clean

The brightest heart that you’d ever seen

But the thing is that glass is so easy to break

All you need is one tiny mistake

You figured that the shine was all that mattered

You didn’t realize when it slipped from your hands it would shatter

And when you saw just what you’d done

You tried to stop the breaking that had already begun

You tried to put back together the pieces and they cut you deep

And you grew frustrated and tired as I made you bleed

And you finally gave up and walked away

Because the price was too much to pay

Hearts are expensive and one of a kind

And trying to fix the old one drove you out of your mind

So finally you reached the end of your rope

Decided I was all out of hope

Moved on with someone you thought would be stronger

But you’ll break them soon- just a little bit longer

You haven’t been able to take your words back so far

Because they’ve already left thick red scars

Just like an old photo where the color’s started to fade

As you try to put back together the mess that you made

And I

Don’t cry

I don’t say a word

Silence is something that can be heard

Silver, gold, even diamond

You’ll find a way to get to them

Because your own heart is made of stone

It’s chained up and frozen and locked all alone

But it can give too- little by little

Tiny fractures branching out from the middle

And it will happen one day- and I’m warning you

Glass hearts will break- but stone one’s will too

WOLFCALLS

 ALL ALRIGHT WITH ME

Kiss her deeply, look in her eyes

And break something in me hidden inside

But baby, it all seems alright with you

And I bet she loves you better than I do

Gotta walk on your tightrope

Blown around by high hopes

Trying to get over you

But love, its nothing new

And I’ve gotta balance

Clear your closed- in fence

Hit the tracks

Run and never look back

And the night is so cold

Even though I’ve already been told

And I’ve gotta will myself to be strong

Even before we’d begin you’d moved on

I tried so hard to get that smile on your face

Just to be replaced

But baby, it seems alright with you

And I think she loves you better than I do

I know you’re listening now to hear what I say

I can feel your eyes on me even when I walk away

And I can feel your touch even when no one else is near

And I can hear your silence- deafeningly clear

And I miss your laugh and the sound of your voice

But I need to respect that you’ve made your choice

So I wrote you this song and told you this story

Please just keep it a secret for me

And you love her more- and she’s the one who makes you happy

And baby, that’s all alright with me

WOLFCALLS

FALL FOR YOU

I hate you

I love you

More than I ever knew

Not what I intended to do

Played with fire and I got burned

But sometimes pain’s the way to learn

Messed around with the way people felt

And felt the impact of what I’d dealt

I’m calm

I’m insane

You’re storm of silence

With that look of defiance

Like gazing through ice

I should’ve thought twice

Play with emotions and they’ll bite you back

Faking it gets you knocked clean off the tracks

Get away from me

I  want you

It’s a roller coaster ride

Turning tables and changing sides

I can’t breathe but I still don’t

Understand why I won’t.

I thought I was clever conjuring my lies

Dancing you on strings and controlling your ties

Never want to see you

I miss you

It’s crazy I know

This confusion, this chaos about letting go

Just one little match I set the forest on fire

Just one little act I set us burning down with desire

It’s always night now and everything’s blue

Would you believe it if I really felt something with you?

I can’t stand you

I need you

Some parts weren’t an act at all

Because I really did fall

For you

Thought you knew

That part wasn’t a lie

I know it’s too late to apologize

But before you leave me

I just want to say I’m sorry

WOLFCALLS

THE SCIENCE OF LOVE

I caught myself staring up at the stars again

Hoping that they had the answers for me

Listening to love songs that I don’t believe in

And I watching reruns of old romance stories

 

I thought we could span us out to forever

I tried to understand him, thought I had a hope

But instead of putting us together

I ended up breaking us both

 

He tried to make me understand

Release me from the chain’s weight

He held summer’s light in his hands

Tried to teach me the laws of science and faith

 

He told me there was more to the universe

Than what meets the eye

Love’s a power against hate’s curse

There’s more to life than just “live and die”

 

I tried to open up my mind

To understand just how he thought

But I didn’t see it even after centuries of time

And his love was the cost

 

I know I shouldn’t have spoken out against his beliefs

And now I’m stuck not knowing what to do

What used to be light is now dimmed with grief

And it doesn’t make sense without you

 

So then I fell into an unending night

Blood flowing straight out of opened scars

Trying my best to set things right

But all I did was fall too far

 

Entire weeks spent awake

Struggling to understand his point of view

Pushing to the point where I know I’ll break

Because I think was beginning to understand love around you

WOLFCALLS

SUMMER AND WINTER

He told me I was different when we first met

He trusted me with everything and told me every secret

But suspicions arose and darkened our minds

And I knew we were running out of time

His version doesn’t match mine on what’s right

And finally it happened – exploding the night

He cries

“I never wanted goodbye,

But all these falls, slams to the floor

I can’t take it anymore.”

So now he watches me through a stony silence

Both sides of communication lost through unmoving defiance

He won’t speak to me- not a single word

He claims he tried to say something but I just never heard

Sometimes it seems like we’re moving closer but he just breaks away

And I should’ve known something so good could never stay

Winter girls aren’t made for heat

Summer boys aren’t made to freeze

He told me that he loved me but I just abused the way he feels

He gave me everything and I would just lie and steal

Summer and winter, heat and cold

Golden wishes and silver dreams that were never told

Light and dark and ice and fire

And two hearts run off tracks by reckless desire

And now there’s an endless ocean between him and I

And what was left of love has withered and died

And now his eyes are on me

Begging to set him free

So I turn away from his flames and walk back to the snow

Breathe  in the thin air and finally let him go

WOLFCALLS

 

 

STORM

Beforehand was the worst part

With fire sparking between the cracks of a broken heart

And the air was so intense

As both sides readied their best defense

Then storm clouds began rolling in

Alive with energy and darker than sin

And fear burned bright

In a hate- riddled night

And I took a deep breath

And stepped into the shadow of death

And the storm rode high

So loud it was deafening and I

Stood there with the wind running over me

Threatened by all the wild waves of the sea

And all these chains dragged me down

But as lightning crashed around

And rained streamed down my skin

Realizing just what position I was in

And the storm tore away the fear and set me free

And it when the lightning struck my heart I could finally  breathe

And as it faded and with it’s own life took mine

I laughed for the first time

WOLFCALLS

 

 

 

 

 

 

GRAY SKIES

Voices echo off the walls

As I watch him watch me from across the hall

I hear his voice swirl through my brain

24/7, I think I’m going insane

He speaks a thousand words all through a perfect silence

Playing with both sides- in one hand faith the other science

He’ll let me go, saying he’s set me free

Then whisper in my ear that he could never leave me

He’s not even sure if what he says is real

‘Cause he’s just addicted to the way that it feels

Says he won’t let go ’cause he’d never make it on his own

Yet he and I both know he’d do just fine alone,

He knows all the best ways to take me apart

Makes a fool out of my logic by pulling on my heart,

Gets me convinced he’s always watching from behind,

Leaves me with words I keep running through my mind

And he likes to keep nothing the way that it were

But there is one thing  that I know for sure

He’s addicted to those gray skies

And I’m addicted to the fire in his eyes,

He loves breathing in the air before a storm,

He’ll sleep in the middle of a blizzard to keep warm

He’s addicted to the vibration of the drums sounding,

And loves anything that will get his heart pounding,

He’s addicted to the light of the full moon late at night

And he’s addicted to the thrill of winning fights

He chases highs just to be reckless

And we wake entwined in the perfect mess

And I know he’ll get me every time

Because I know he’s never really mine

Chasing him’s just gonna wind me up dead

Because he’s always a thousand steps ahead

And each time around leads to more regrets

But I’m not ready to give up yet

Let me share a secret with you:

He’s addicted to the feeling- but I am too

WOLFCALLS

 

WHO’S DANGEROUS NOW?

dark-woods-wallpaper-2Light’s are glowing

And red is flowing

And I can see

Him watching me

And I’m just a rabbit and he’s the fox

Running me through traps, setting me in locks

He’s got the most charming words and the sweetest smiles

While he’s waiting to eat me alive the whole while

He’s patient, logical and smart

He knows all the best ways to tear out your heart

From the beginning he plotted it all

He knows exactly where I’ll trip up and fall

Loading the springs and tightening wires

Lighting the match to set the forest on fire

And he’ll  trick me every time and he knows

But he’s perfected his poker face and nothing will show

He’s just testing my waters to be sure I’ll float

Then stalking me down to bite out my throat

He’s beautiful enough to steal away your breath

Glowing perfection- a scarlet angel of death

That sardonic smile will mess with my mind

Driving me into such madness that it can’t be defined

Green eyes will burn in my sleep every night

Watching me around corners when there’s no one in sight

I’m just a rabbit and I’m just his prey

And he’s just a shining moment that can’t stay

And I know he’s a killer who’ll bring us both a rope around our necks

But I’m more than ready for what’s happening next

And when I break his labels

And turn over his tables

I’ll be holding the gun to his head

Holding all the power instead

And I’ll figure out how

I’ll follow through after I say “So who’s dangerous now?”

WOLFCALLS

SUNLIGHT

sunshineI watched him with sunlight in his eyes as he cried

Breathing too fast, heartbeat too loud as I listened to him lie

And I’d give a million dollars to know what’s going through his head

But I have to settle for sleeping with a ghost instead

And he leans in from his side of the bed and takes my face in his hands

Says he can’t explain it- that I wouldn’t understand

He thought that I was different but I’m just like all the rest

And no one can fix that empty space inside his chest

He says he loved me but we both know that’s not true

And I say “I don’t know how I can get through to you”,

No words, no sound as I slowly get back dressed

I know what he’s going through- is it really so hard to confess?

Finally he admits “I don’t know what love is

And all those nights out chased is

Just emotions that’ve been wasted”

And so I say

“Sometimes that’s okay

Because sometimes it’s alright not to know

The hard part’s letting go

And sometimes it’s alright

To cry out for someone to hold at night

You just need someone to to take you home

To pretend you’re not alone

Sometimes you don’t want happiness going in

You just want your heart pumping in adrenaline

And sometimes you don’t want love- just a warm body

And someone who you can let all the scars see

And sometimes it’s hard to remember it’s just a fling

What you think is killing you is just a feeling

Then you think love isn’t real- it’s just a powerful illusion

Just a broken heart drawn to a desperate conclusion

And sometimes it’s alright to cry

Let your heartache stream down from your eyes

Like crystal sunlight,like broken glass

As you wonder how much longer you can last

And you’re so confused

You thought you were loved but you were just used

Praying this is just a dream- that none of this hell is real

Trust me- I know just how that feels”

And I stare into his eyes

An entire world of broken skies

And I hold him while he cries

Listen while he confesses his lies

I hold him while his heart breaks

Under the weight of so many mistakes

As inside he slowly dies

I have him look up to the sunrise

Searching for this end of night

One last chance for the sunlight

-WOLFCALLS