BEST AT THIS GAME

He doesn’t like when I’m out all night

He doesn’t like when I play pretend

He doesn’t like it when I get into fights

Says it’s not the way to go with friends

 

She just wants to mess with me

She doesn’t even really give it any thought

I swear to god that girl is crazy

And I’m just waiting to get caught

 

He says he can trust me

He doesn’t know the half of what I’ve done

And I keep trying to cover it up so he won’t see

But the landslide’s already begun

 

I know there’s something she’s not saying

I can see it in her eyes

But it’s her game and she’s the best at playing

She’s a pro at weaving her secrets in with lies

 

He’s just like all the rest

With summer dancing in his hands

And though he pushes my secrets to the test

I know he wouldn’t understand

 

I can’t tell when she’s faking ’cause she keeps rocking the boat

Anything you’ll say “don’t” to she’ll do

Crash it, burn it, blow a kiss and leave a note

Just because you told her not to

 

They all say they can instantly trust me

They don’t know that I’m a backstabbing little fox

It takes them a whiles to finally see

And by then they’re already under my lock

 

She’s just in my friend zone

But I know she’s out to win

She’s the X of the equation that I can’t get alone

Clever little vixen

She carries all the secrets

And she balances the lines

She buries all her regrets

And she’ll get you every time

But I’m learning all her tricks

The girl under the masks is so tired within

I know her illusions aren’t really magic

And I know this time I’ll win

-WOLFCALLS

 

 

GLASS

When you first fell for me you said it was because of the glass

glittering heart in my chest that no one else has

So clear and so open and so crystal and clean

The brightest heart that you’d ever seen

But the thing is that glass is so easy to break

All you need is one tiny mistake

You figured that the shine was all that mattered

You didn’t realize when it slipped from your hands it would shatter

And when you saw just what you’d done

You tried to stop the breaking that had already begun

You tried to put back together the pieces and they cut you deep

And you grew frustrated and tired as I made you bleed

And you finally gave up and walked away

Because the price was too much to pay

Hearts are expensive and one of a kind

And trying to fix the old one drove you out of your mind

So finally you reached the end of your rope

Decided I was all out of hope

Moved on with someone you thought would be stronger

But you’ll break them soon- just a little bit longer

You haven’t been able to take your words back so far

Because they’ve already left thick red scars

Just like an old photo where the color’s started to fade

As you try to put back together the mess that you made

And I

Don’t cry

I don’t say a word

Silence is something that can be heard

Silver, gold, even diamond

You’ll find a way to get to them

Because your own heart is made of stone

It’s chained up and frozen and locked all alone

But it can give too- little by little

Tiny fractures branching out from the middle

And it will happen one day- and I’m warning you

Glass hearts will break- but stone one’s will too

WOLFCALLS

 ALL ALRIGHT WITH ME

Kiss her deeply, look in her eyes

And break something in me hidden inside

But baby, it all seems alright with you

And I bet she loves you better than I do

Gotta walk on your tightrope

Blown around by high hopes

Trying to get over you

But love, its nothing new

And I’ve gotta balance

Clear your closed- in fence

Hit the tracks

Run and never look back

And the night is so cold

Even though I’ve already been told

And I’ve gotta will myself to be strong

Even before we’d begin you’d moved on

I tried so hard to get that smile on your face

Just to be replaced

But baby, it seems alright with you

And I think she loves you better than I do

I know you’re listening now to hear what I say

I can feel your eyes on me even when I walk away

And I can feel your touch even when no one else is near

And I can hear your silence- deafeningly clear

And I miss your laugh and the sound of your voice

But I need to respect that you’ve made your choice

So I wrote you this song and told you this story

Please just keep it a secret for me

And you love her more- and she’s the one who makes you happy

And baby, that’s all alright with me

WOLFCALLS

FALL FOR YOU

I hate you

I love you

More than I ever knew

Not what I intended to do

Played with fire and I got burned

But sometimes pain’s the way to learn

Messed around with the way people felt

And felt the impact of what I’d dealt

I’m calm

I’m insane

You’re storm of silence

With that look of defiance

Like gazing through ice

I should’ve thought twice

Play with emotions and they’ll bite you back

Faking it gets you knocked clean off the tracks

Get away from me

I  want you

It’s a roller coaster ride

Turning tables and changing sides

I can’t breathe but I still don’t

Understand why I won’t.

I thought I was clever conjuring my lies

Dancing you on strings and controlling your ties

Never want to see you

I miss you

It’s crazy I know

This confusion, this chaos about letting go

Just one little match I set the forest on fire

Just one little act I set us burning down with desire

It’s always night now and everything’s blue

Would you believe it if I really felt something with you?

I can’t stand you

I need you

Some parts weren’t an act at all

Because I really did fall

For you

Thought you knew

That part wasn’t a lie

I know it’s too late to apologize

But before you leave me

I just want to say I’m sorry

WOLFCALLS

THE SCIENCE OF LOVE

I caught myself staring up at the stars again

Hoping that they had the answers for me

Listening to love songs that I don’t believe in

And I watching reruns of old romance stories

 

I thought we could span us out to forever

I tried to understand him, thought I had a hope

But instead of putting us together

I ended up breaking us both

 

He tried to make me understand

Release me from the chain’s weight

He held summer’s light in his hands

Tried to teach me the laws of science and faith

 

He told me there was more to the universe

Than what meets the eye

Love’s a power against hate’s curse

There’s more to life than just “live and die”

 

I tried to open up my mind

To understand just how he thought

But I didn’t see it even after centuries of time

And his love was the cost

 

I know I shouldn’t have spoken out against his beliefs

And now I’m stuck not knowing what to do

What used to be light is now dimmed with grief

And it doesn’t make sense without you

 

So then I fell into an unending night

Blood flowing straight out of opened scars

Trying my best to set things right

But all I did was fall too far

 

Entire weeks spent awake

Struggling to understand his point of view

Pushing to the point where I know I’ll break

Because I think was beginning to understand love around you

WOLFCALLS

SUMMER AND WINTER

He told me I was different when we first met

He trusted me with everything and told me every secret

But suspicions arose and darkened our minds

And I knew we were running out of time

His version doesn’t match mine on what’s right

And finally it happened – exploding the night

He cries

“I never wanted goodbye,

But all these falls, slams to the floor

I can’t take it anymore.”

So now he watches me through a stony silence

Both sides of communication lost through unmoving defiance

He won’t speak to me- not a single word

He claims he tried to say something but I just never heard

Sometimes it seems like we’re moving closer but he just breaks away

And I should’ve known something so good could never stay

Winter girls aren’t made for heat

Summer boys aren’t made to freeze

He told me that he loved me but I just abused the way he feels

He gave me everything and I would just lie and steal

Summer and winter, heat and cold

Golden wishes and silver dreams that were never told

Light and dark and ice and fire

And two hearts run off tracks by reckless desire

And now there’s an endless ocean between him and I

And what was left of love has withered and died

And now his eyes are on me

Begging to set him free

So I turn away from his flames and walk back to the snow

Breathe  in the thin air and finally let him go

WOLFCALLS

 

 

WHO’S DANGEROUS NOW?

dark-woods-wallpaper-2Light’s are glowing

And red is flowing

And I can see

Him watching me

And I’m just a rabbit and he’s the fox

Running me through traps, setting me in locks

He’s got the most charming words and the sweetest smiles

While he’s waiting to eat me alive the whole while

He’s patient, logical and smart

He knows all the best ways to tear out your heart

From the beginning he plotted it all

He knows exactly where I’ll trip up and fall

Loading the springs and tightening wires

Lighting the match to set the forest on fire

And he’ll  trick me every time and he knows

But he’s perfected his poker face and nothing will show

He’s just testing my waters to be sure I’ll float

Then stalking me down to bite out my throat

He’s beautiful enough to steal away your breath

Glowing perfection- a scarlet angel of death

That sardonic smile will mess with my mind

Driving me into such madness that it can’t be defined

Green eyes will burn in my sleep every night

Watching me around corners when there’s no one in sight

I’m just a rabbit and I’m just his prey

And he’s just a shining moment that can’t stay

And I know he’s a killer who’ll bring us both a rope around our necks

But I’m more than ready for what’s happening next

And when I break his labels

And turn over his tables

I’ll be holding the gun to his head

Holding all the power instead

And I’ll figure out how

I’ll follow through after I say “So who’s dangerous now?”

WOLFCALLS

CRAZY LOVE

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Baby you the best of the best ’cause you work me out

I build my walls up just for you to tear down

You make me go extra miles till I’m hard as rock

Push it till I explode in an aftershock

Part of me loves you, part of me hates you

And you drive me crazy with what you do,

You don’t even realize this is how I feel

You could never tell a lie apart from what’s real

Baby you slash me to pieces till all I can do is bleed

Crazy high from love, you’re all I’ll ever need

You’re love reminds me of a steel hunting trap

Once I fall for you I can never go back

And you’re like the hunter who catches me

Loving you’s like being killed with electricity

And I sort of hate it, and I sort of love it

But either way it’s too late cause the dynamites been lit

And you don’t even realize

How around you part of me dies

And you drive me round and round inside of my head

Like gunshots firing – I swear you’re gonna drop me dead

Drive me till I’ve got strength like stone

Make me see other people when I’m all alone

Make me wanna laugh, make me wanna scream

Make me spin around in circles of insane dreams

Baby I’ve got almost all the signs of insanity

Why can’t you just release your hold on me?

I wish I could settle for one of the rest

But you give me this funny feeling inside my chest

Whenever you’re near me

How can that be?

If they ask me to describe it I don’t know if I could

Or maybe I just don’t know if I would

Cause all the stars are shifting out of alignment up above

Baby this must be what they call crazy love

WOLFCALLS

 

UNFINISHED PAINTING

You tell me there’s no way I know how you feel

That it’s agony so intense it’s sharply real

You think I don’t understand

But you have no idea how well I can

I know how your’e just balancing on the brink

And I know this is what you think:

There’s no beauty in pain

Only you with the blame

There’s never second chances

Only fake glances

There’s nothing stunning in tears

Nothing pure about fear

As the world tears down your innocence

Takes an open heart and builds a fence

And there’s no way a broken heart

Is in some way of piece of art

Because Jack left Diane and James Dean died young

And you wonder where on earth all this hurt came from

Even  Spider-Man couldn’t save Gwen

And you know it’s not so easy to pretend

And every day you feel something breaking in your chest

As you fall further into this mess

And every day you die inside

Cry at night till no more tears are left in your eyes

Sometimes you see things they say aren’t there

Either you’re crazy or they don’t care

You talk with voices inside your head

They said that you’re insane and already half-dead

And you know that’s not true, but not matter how hard you try

You can’t get them to see things through your eyes

There’s no point in life as far as you can see

Well child, listen to me

It’s a broken world, it’s a place of pain

And that will never, ever change

But beyond the night there’s still stars

And there’s still a heart beating under those scars

And I know that everyone’s a wolf heading for your heart

Set and ready to pounce and tear you apart

And I know the world is watching you

They can’t wait to see just what you’ll do

And there’s more wolves than you can count

Gatherin together to see the fallout

But you don’t have to hide behind your walls

I trust that you’re not going to fall

There’s a lot of brokenness out there waiting

But I promise it’s an unfinished painting

-WOLFCALLS

Here’s a few more drawings of mine, as well as some tips for other beginners…

Okay, so I confess- I am obsessed with marvel superheroes. I’ve learned how to draw them recently, and I’m still working in it, so uh, don’t judge 😂

Here we go:

IRONMAN

I know that if you look up an image and see all that complicated armor it doesn’t seem like it, but Iron Man is actually rather easy to draw. You just have to be familiar with the form of a human body and you should have the general idea, then just add on from there. 🙂

CAPTAIN AMERICA

Captain America is a little harder to draw. His uniform’s a little more complex than it looks, and you have to get the proportions of everything right… Or it doesn’t look like Captain America. Yeah, Chris Evan’s face isn’t exactly a breeze to sketch out either XD.

THE AMAZING SPIDER MAN

Alright, for the record the amazing Spider Man is my favorite superhero ever (sorry Mcguire fans, but I saw Andrew Garfield’s movie first… And I’m sticking with it). Though you can choose any actor you want, and it will still be the same level of difficulty to draw: Drop dead easy. If you know how to draw a person, than you can knock this dead no problem- but if you’re not familiar with how to draw human form, it’s a little more challenging because you’ve got nowhere to hide your mistakes. Also, if you get a proportion wrong, then Spidey’s incredible flexible, agile fighting style just looks really awkward, so you gotta hit the nail on the head or bring the whole house down. This drawing’s a little darker, but I kind of liked how it turned out. Make sure to add lighting in the right place or you won’t really be able to make out any details of Spidey’s uniform as you send him swinging through Queens.

GOLDENWOLF

This is actually not a superhero, but a character from my own stories 🙂 Goldenwolf is an ordinary 18 year old, right? I wanted to capture the two different sides of this character in my story: The friendly, ordinary person that people like me can relate to, and then what I’ve draw here: An assassin trying to make up for what he’s done. You can read more here if you want. Anyways, when drawing your own characters you have to capture them the way you want people to see them, and in the process you’ll discover more about them yourself. This is really just a rough sketch, but in it I wanted something fierce, something bold and something dangerous- just like Goldenwolf. I wanted a person to be able to look at this and be able to tell a lot just by seeing it. You can obviously choose whatever you want them to look like, but it’s a little harder cause you don’t already have an image in your head of what they should look like, you’ve gotta just go with a single idea.

Anyways, that’s all I’ve got. 🙂 Thanks for tuning in. If you want me to post more stuff like this, you can let me know, it was kind of an experiment. If you’re an artist with some tips for me, I’d love to hear them! I’m always looking to improve!

Remember, drawing isn’t hard, you just have to have a confident mindset.

So I hope I didn’t suck.

What’d you think?

-WOLFCALLS