SILENCE

Whenever I close my eyes

Your ghost is staring back at me

I’m trapped in a net of my own lies

And you’re all I see,

And as war falls out into motion

I can’t believe what I’ve begun

I stare out at the scarlet ocean

And can’t comprehend what I’ve done,

And I hear the whispers fly around on the street

My own friends look at me like I’m a stranger

Surrounded by people whose eyes I can’t meet

And everyone tells others I’m a danger,

And I remember your eyes that night

Full of disbelief that I wouldn’t pull through

In the middle of that bloodstained fight

And I didn’t speak up for you,

I watched in cold silence

As they pinned you against a wall

Your last act of defiance

And then watched your lifeless body fall,

I know that begging for forgiveness is no good

There’s no way for an apology

But if there was a way to make it up, I would

Anything to say I’m sorry,

There’s too many secrets that remain unspoken

There’s too many lies formed of fear

There’s too many promises that’ve been broken

But all of them will be burned down here,

And all of those things that I did wrong

All of those lost fights

All of those times I couldn’t be strong

They’ll come pouring out tonight,

All of my darkest secrets that hold me together

Listen if you dare

They’ll ring inside of you forever

Turn every dream into a nightmare,

And my legend will come back alive

Once again on this battle line

Put all I have into full drive

And everyone will hear my voice this time,

I can’t believe I never told you

I can’t believe I walked away

But now I know just what to do

This is what I didn’t say

WOLFCALLS

WINTERHEART

I fell for him in an autumn still laced with summer’s heat
First time he put his arms around me I was mesmerized by his heartbeat
It was pure summer when we were together
A space in time that spun out to forever
He’s a fire with a heart I can feel burning in mine
I could’ve lived in that summer until the end of time
I struggled to match his heat but no matter how hard I tried
I couldn’t shake the cold- I was still winter inside
It was like rays of light trying to reach through a dark river
He gave me his love but all I gave him was a shiver
And I just want to see him laughing- see his eyes light up with joy
But I’m never warm enough for my beautiful summer boy
He holds the power of daylight circling in his hand
A golden mystery winter could never understand
And while he melts away my snow and brings warmth to my breath
All I can give him is cold- enough to freeze him to death
There’s a reason only winter is characterized by snow
And it breaks me inside but I’ve got to let him go
I hope he finds someone complete and alive
So he doesn’t have to struggle through blizzards to survive
And I know he tried to put back together these broken parts
Because under all this frozen crystal he still saw a heart
But the ice just cut his hands and forced him to bleed
And he grew frustrated, thinking he didn’t have what I need
And I thought I felt love but it was really just cold
The glitter of ice falling for the glitter of gold
Summer could never love winter with all its frostbite and snow
And he never could’ve fallen for me- I know
And so I’ll watch from the edge of the icy woods
Tell myself this is all for good
The night inside screaming for light of day
As winter chases summer- but I’m always season’s away
-WOLFCALLS

WORTH IT TO ME

Every time we choose peace over war

Fight only for what’s worth fighting for

Every time we choose love over hate

It makes me wonder if it’s not too late

To be a world I once imagined past all the stars

Free of pain and free of scars

Yet every time I see all the hurt and lies

Some of that hope slowly dies

But every time your smile lights up your eyes

Sparks a fire and makes me feel alive

Every time another chain breaks free

That, my love, is worth it all to me

WOLFCALLS

UNFINISHED PAINTING

You tell me there’s no way I know how you feel

That it’s agony so intense it’s sharply real

You think I don’t understand

But you have no idea how well I can

I know how your’e just balancing on the brink

And I know this is what you think:

There’s no beauty in pain

Only you with the blame

There’s never second chances

Only fake glances

There’s nothing stunning in tears

Nothing pure about fear

As the world tears down your innocence

Takes an open heart and builds a fence

And there’s no way a broken heart

Is in some way of piece of art

Because Jack left Diane and James Dean died young

And you wonder where on earth all this hurt came from

Even  Spider-Man couldn’t save Gwen

And you know it’s not so easy to pretend

And every day you feel something breaking in your chest

As you fall further into this mess

And every day you die inside

Cry at night till no more tears are left in your eyes

Sometimes you see things they say aren’t there

Either you’re crazy or they don’t care

You talk with voices inside your head

They said that you’re insane and already half-dead

And you know that’s not true, but not matter how hard you try

You can’t get them to see things through your eyes

There’s no point in life as far as you can see

Well child, listen to me

It’s a broken world, it’s a place of pain

And that will never, ever change

But beyond the night there’s still stars

And there’s still a heart beating under those scars

And I know that everyone’s a wolf heading for your heart

Set and ready to pounce and tear you apart

And I know the world is watching you

They can’t wait to see just what you’ll do

And there’s more wolves than you can count

Gatherin together to see the fallout

But you don’t have to hide behind your walls

I trust that you’re not going to fall

There’s a lot of brokenness out there waiting

But I promise it’s an unfinished painting

-WOLFCALLS