BEST AT THIS GAME

He doesn’t like when I’m out all night

He doesn’t like when I play pretend

He doesn’t like it when I get into fights

Says it’s not the way to go with friends

 

She just wants to mess with me

She doesn’t even really give it any thought

I swear to god that girl is crazy

And I’m just waiting to get caught

 

He says he can trust me

He doesn’t know the half of what I’ve done

And I keep trying to cover it up so he won’t see

But the landslide’s already begun

 

I know there’s something she’s not saying

I can see it in her eyes

But it’s her game and she’s the best at playing

She’s a pro at weaving her secrets in with lies

 

He’s just like all the rest

With summer dancing in his hands

And though he pushes my secrets to the test

I know he wouldn’t understand

 

I can’t tell when she’s faking ’cause she keeps rocking the boat

Anything you’ll say “don’t” to she’ll do

Crash it, burn it, blow a kiss and leave a note

Just because you told her not to

 

They all say they can instantly trust me

They don’t know that I’m a backstabbing little fox

It takes them a whiles to finally see

And by then they’re already under my lock

 

She’s just in my friend zone

But I know she’s out to win

She’s the X of the equation that I can’t get alone

Clever little vixen

She carries all the secrets

And she balances the lines

She buries all her regrets

And she’ll get you every time

But I’m learning all her tricks

The girl under the masks is so tired within

I know her illusions aren’t really magic

And I know this time I’ll win

-WOLFCALLS

 

 

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 ALL ALRIGHT WITH ME

Kiss her deeply, look in her eyes

And break something in me hidden inside

But baby, it all seems alright with you

And I bet she loves you better than I do

Gotta walk on your tightrope

Blown around by high hopes

Trying to get over you

But love, its nothing new

And I’ve gotta balance

Clear your closed- in fence

Hit the tracks

Run and never look back

And the night is so cold

Even though I’ve already been told

And I’ve gotta will myself to be strong

Even before we’d begin you’d moved on

I tried so hard to get that smile on your face

Just to be replaced

But baby, it seems alright with you

And I think she loves you better than I do

I know you’re listening now to hear what I say

I can feel your eyes on me even when I walk away

And I can feel your touch even when no one else is near

And I can hear your silence- deafeningly clear

And I miss your laugh and the sound of your voice

But I need to respect that you’ve made your choice

So I wrote you this song and told you this story

Please just keep it a secret for me

And you love her more- and she’s the one who makes you happy

And baby, that’s all alright with me

WOLFCALLS

FALL FOR YOU

I hate you

I love you

More than I ever knew

Not what I intended to do

Played with fire and I got burned

But sometimes pain’s the way to learn

Messed around with the way people felt

And felt the impact of what I’d dealt

I’m calm

I’m insane

You’re storm of silence

With that look of defiance

Like gazing through ice

I should’ve thought twice

Play with emotions and they’ll bite you back

Faking it gets you knocked clean off the tracks

Get away from me

I  want you

It’s a roller coaster ride

Turning tables and changing sides

I can’t breathe but I still don’t

Understand why I won’t.

I thought I was clever conjuring my lies

Dancing you on strings and controlling your ties

Never want to see you

I miss you

It’s crazy I know

This confusion, this chaos about letting go

Just one little match I set the forest on fire

Just one little act I set us burning down with desire

It’s always night now and everything’s blue

Would you believe it if I really felt something with you?

I can’t stand you

I need you

Some parts weren’t an act at all

Because I really did fall

For you

Thought you knew

That part wasn’t a lie

I know it’s too late to apologize

But before you leave me

I just want to say I’m sorry

WOLFCALLS

SUMMER AND WINTER

He told me I was different when we first met

He trusted me with everything and told me every secret

But suspicions arose and darkened our minds

And I knew we were running out of time

His version doesn’t match mine on what’s right

And finally it happened – exploding the night

He cries

“I never wanted goodbye,

But all these falls, slams to the floor

I can’t take it anymore.”

So now he watches me through a stony silence

Both sides of communication lost through unmoving defiance

He won’t speak to me- not a single word

He claims he tried to say something but I just never heard

Sometimes it seems like we’re moving closer but he just breaks away

And I should’ve known something so good could never stay

Winter girls aren’t made for heat

Summer boys aren’t made to freeze

He told me that he loved me but I just abused the way he feels

He gave me everything and I would just lie and steal

Summer and winter, heat and cold

Golden wishes and silver dreams that were never told

Light and dark and ice and fire

And two hearts run off tracks by reckless desire

And now there’s an endless ocean between him and I

And what was left of love has withered and died

And now his eyes are on me

Begging to set him free

So I turn away from his flames and walk back to the snow

Breathe  in the thin air and finally let him go

WOLFCALLS

 

 

STORM

Beforehand was the worst part

With fire sparking between the cracks of a broken heart

And the air was so intense

As both sides readied their best defense

Then storm clouds began rolling in

Alive with energy and darker than sin

And fear burned bright

In a hate- riddled night

And I took a deep breath

And stepped into the shadow of death

And the storm rode high

So loud it was deafening and I

Stood there with the wind running over me

Threatened by all the wild waves of the sea

And all these chains dragged me down

But as lightning crashed around

And rained streamed down my skin

Realizing just what position I was in

And the storm tore away the fear and set me free

And it when the lightning struck my heart I could finally  breathe

And as it faded and with it’s own life took mine

I laughed for the first time

WOLFCALLS

 

 

 

 

 

 

GRAY SKIES

Voices echo off the walls

As I watch him watch me from across the hall

I hear his voice swirl through my brain

24/7, I think I’m going insane

He speaks a thousand words all through a perfect silence

Playing with both sides- in one hand faith the other science

He’ll let me go, saying he’s set me free

Then whisper in my ear that he could never leave me

He’s not even sure if what he says is real

‘Cause he’s just addicted to the way that it feels

Says he won’t let go ’cause he’d never make it on his own

Yet he and I both know he’d do just fine alone,

He knows all the best ways to take me apart

Makes a fool out of my logic by pulling on my heart,

Gets me convinced he’s always watching from behind,

Leaves me with words I keep running through my mind

And he likes to keep nothing the way that it were

But there is one thing  that I know for sure

He’s addicted to those gray skies

And I’m addicted to the fire in his eyes,

He loves breathing in the air before a storm,

He’ll sleep in the middle of a blizzard to keep warm

He’s addicted to the vibration of the drums sounding,

And loves anything that will get his heart pounding,

He’s addicted to the light of the full moon late at night

And he’s addicted to the thrill of winning fights

He chases highs just to be reckless

And we wake entwined in the perfect mess

And I know he’ll get me every time

Because I know he’s never really mine

Chasing him’s just gonna wind me up dead

Because he’s always a thousand steps ahead

And each time around leads to more regrets

But I’m not ready to give up yet

Let me share a secret with you:

He’s addicted to the feeling- but I am too

WOLFCALLS

 

WINTERHEART

I fell for him in an autumn still laced with summer’s heat
First time he put his arms around me I was mesmerized by his heartbeat
It was pure summer when we were together
A space in time that spun out to forever
He’s a fire with a heart I can feel burning in mine
I could’ve lived in that summer until the end of time
I struggled to match his heat but no matter how hard I tried
I couldn’t shake the cold- I was still winter inside
It was like rays of light trying to reach through a dark river
He gave me his love but all I gave him was a shiver
And I just want to see him laughing- see his eyes light up with joy
But I’m never warm enough for my beautiful summer boy
He holds the power of daylight circling in his hand
A golden mystery winter could never understand
And while he melts away my snow and brings warmth to my breath
All I can give him is cold- enough to freeze him to death
There’s a reason only winter is characterized by snow
And it breaks me inside but I’ve got to let him go
I hope he finds someone complete and alive
So he doesn’t have to struggle through blizzards to survive
And I know he tried to put back together these broken parts
Because under all this frozen crystal he still saw a heart
But the ice just cut his hands and forced him to bleed
And he grew frustrated, thinking he didn’t have what I need
And I thought I felt love but it was really just cold
The glitter of ice falling for the glitter of gold
Summer could never love winter with all its frostbite and snow
And he never could’ve fallen for me- I know
And so I’ll watch from the edge of the icy woods
Tell myself this is all for good
The night inside screaming for light of day
As winter chases summer- but I’m always season’s away
-WOLFCALLS

CRAZY LOVE

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Baby you the best of the best ’cause you work me out

I build my walls up just for you to tear down

You make me go extra miles till I’m hard as rock

Push it till I explode in an aftershock

Part of me loves you, part of me hates you

And you drive me crazy with what you do,

You don’t even realize this is how I feel

You could never tell a lie apart from what’s real

Baby you slash me to pieces till all I can do is bleed

Crazy high from love, you’re all I’ll ever need

You’re love reminds me of a steel hunting trap

Once I fall for you I can never go back

And you’re like the hunter who catches me

Loving you’s like being killed with electricity

And I sort of hate it, and I sort of love it

But either way it’s too late cause the dynamites been lit

And you don’t even realize

How around you part of me dies

And you drive me round and round inside of my head

Like gunshots firing – I swear you’re gonna drop me dead

Drive me till I’ve got strength like stone

Make me see other people when I’m all alone

Make me wanna laugh, make me wanna scream

Make me spin around in circles of insane dreams

Baby I’ve got almost all the signs of insanity

Why can’t you just release your hold on me?

I wish I could settle for one of the rest

But you give me this funny feeling inside my chest

Whenever you’re near me

How can that be?

If they ask me to describe it I don’t know if I could

Or maybe I just don’t know if I would

Cause all the stars are shifting out of alignment up above

Baby this must be what they call crazy love

WOLFCALLS

 

RED

red-wallpaper-15When something inside

Claws it’s way through

When someone severs the ties

Of this monster in you

And hatred and rage

Begin to flow

Released from its cage

The beast won’t let go

And blood stains a night

Full of silent screams

Scarlet fire burns bright

In nightmares for dreams

And fury will rise

Filling your head

Blaze alive in your eyes

Turning everything red

But red isn’t defined

By anger alone because

It also colors the lines

Of the emotion called love

Of passion and heartache

For something too close and too far

The way that you break

Wishing on stars

Of want and desire

Of an iron connection

Racing through your veins like fire

Is pain in perfection

The way that you feel

When they’re beside you

Something surreal

Every moment is new

And when they tell you they love you

And it makes your heart glow

Like it grew wings and flew

It’s what you always wanted to know

Love and hate

So incredibly the same

Pretend you can’t stop then it’s too late

And you’re trapped in the game

People say that you can’t control it

But I say they’re wrong

Once a fire’s been lit

You can put it out before long

One feeling can change to the other one

In the blink of an eye

As soon as it has begun

It can change sides

So control your love and control your hate

Keep them on track

Because once it’s too late

You can never turn back

WOLFCALLS